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Well, that was a complete crock of shit.

I went to a dietician last night.

What I wanted was a brief assessment of my diet followed by some suggestions about areas I was deficient in, and maybe a recommendation on calorie intake.

What I got, instead, was informed that I was obese (thanks so much. I had no idea.) Followed by an hour long sales pitch. Complete with dubious science (unsourced “facts”, papers presented in little known journals/conferences, things that are just plain WRONG. Oh, and apparently when one is constipated, one’s red blood cells die from the toxins. UM WHAT?), orientalism and pressure to sign up for a six month program that would cost me $2000.

I challenged him on more than a few things. I was just SO PISSED that I’d told him what I needed/wanted and he completely ignored that for his sales pitch. Also, he wanted me to take algae as a supplement, and he was all “Oh, THAT isn’t right,” when I gave him details of what I was eating, but I couldn’t get him to give me details of what I should be eating instead.

He waived the fee, which is just as well. Otherwise I would have paid $145 for a sales pitch.

Why is this so fucking difficult?

In which I am cranky

Spam comments really, really irritate me. So do fads, and most nutritional supplements. (Disclaimer: I do take calcium tablets because I can’t eat dairy, and I do use a protein powder because without it I eat too little for breakfast and I can’t face eggs or meat in the mornings. That’s it.) Pushy salespeople generally give me the irrits too.

I’m not interested in what you have to sell. I have a very good understanding of the science of weight loss and metabolism (… having a degree in it kind of helps.) I don’t believe in quick fixes and I’m not spending money, beyond the basics that I need to exercise (clothing and maybe a yoga mat. I’ll look at weights later) and buy healthy food. And by “healthy” food, I mean food that is minimally processed. I want to buy the raw ingredients and I want to cook it myself. I don’t believe in your latest miracle food. Show me the peer-reviewed scientific studies published in a reputable journal.

If you phrase things about “Five exercises I HAVE to do” then my internal bullshit meter is going to start blaring and I’m going to bristle. Obviously exercise is helpful, but I am starting off from a place of doing NO exercise and exercising to the point of incapacity will put me off. I know myself. I know my capabilities and I know my body. Don’t try and tell me what to do, it makes me cranky.

A lot of things make me cranky. The only reasons I am losing weight are: I don’t feel comfortable at the weight I’m at, I have a few medical issues which losing weight would help and I have petty annoyances like being able to buy clothes that would be easier if I was lighter.

That’s it. This is my choice and part of my bodily autonomy. I don’t force it on anyone else–and I do have friends who are fat (their word) and don’t want to lose weight. That’s fine. They deserve to be treated with respect and with regard to their dignity. It doesn’t matter if people aren’t my friends, the way obese/fat people are treated regularly makes my blood boil. If I see anyone demonising or making fun of fat people, I will pretty much dislike them intensely straight away.

… turns out I’m cranky about a lot of things. Back to your regularly scheduled programming.

Things that tick me off

Food does not have a moral value. It isn’t good or bad, it just is. I need to eat it to live, and yes, it’s tasty.

For me, the question comes down to: Does this help my overall goal. My overall goals are:

  1. Be healthy. At the moment, this involves getting my cholesterol down, getting my blood pressure down, stopping my knees from hurting.
  2. Be happy. Exercise will help me with this.

At the moment, cake does not fit into my overall goal. It’s very calorie dense and while I COULD fit it into my calories for the day, I can’t do so and not feel ravenous a couple of hours later.

Then there’s carb crash. The thing you need to know is: I am a scientist. I observe causes and effects and sometimes treat my own body as if it’s part of a scientific experiment. What I have observed is:

If I eat a huge meal comprising mostly of high GI foods, even if I don’t under- or over-eat my allotted calories, the next day I will feel ravenously hungry, weepy and moody.

I can eat the cake. But it doesn’t help me with where I want to be, and I eat it in the knowledge that the next day, I’m going to feel horrible. Cake’s not bad. Neither am I if I decide to eat it. I just don’t want to at the moment, thank you.

I refuse to feel guilt connected to food. I have knowledge. I am in control. Sometimes, hunger or cravings will lead me to make decisions that don’t support my overall goal. That’s fine, it hasn’t wrecked my chances forever, it’ll just take a little longer to get there.

The main thing is not how many times you fail, but how many times you keep trying until you succeed.