Today is really, really hard

I’ve been sticking to my calorie allowance. I’ve actually been losing weight slightly too fast, and think I may need to up my calories slightly, but I’ll speak to the dietician on Thursday.

But today is really hard. I ran (for a given value of running that is the second week of Zombies 5K training) last night and felt great. Then today, I felt like I was running on empty when I woke up. This resulted in me getting up late, which resulted in me not having time to eat my full breakfast. I had a protein shake and coffee (cereal alone doesn’t fill me up enough.) Luckily, I keep cereal at work for such an occurrence.

I felt better once I ate, but then I was hungry again. I ate my morning snacks, and then half my afternoon snacks. I was ok, but I was starving at lunch even though I’m generally not.

I’m trying to give my lunch time to expand/settle and fill me up before I start on the last of the snacks. I’m just–hungry, and while I’m a little hungry, I’m never usually ravenous. (My theory is that because I’ve gone away from one HUGE meal every day and a half/two days to three smaller meals of less calorie dense food + snacks, my hunger never reaches EAT ALL THE THINGS levels.)

I’m ravenous right now.

I’m going to try and get through it. I have an apple, I can have tea and try and fill myself up. I cannot expect it to be as easy as it has been. It would be great if my body knew what it wanted, but obviously becoming obese felt great for my body so I’m going to have to take that with a grain of salt. I’m trying to rationalise it with “You’re hungry because you’re having to dip into fuel reserves. You’ve had a decent amount of food, you’re just losing weight.” It’s sort of working, but… still. Hungry.

Just–today is really hard.

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    • caraannewilliams
    • May 16th, 2013

    Sounds almost exactly like a post at Biggest Girl in the Ballroom. http://dancingwithstefanie.com/2013/05/08/how-are-you-doing-rockstar/

    You should commiserate. 🙂

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